I'm officially in the doldrums right now.

So much shit has hit the fan that I cant figure out where to start.
Well for one....I had a huge blowout with Demon and basically, I broke all ties from him. It took a YEAR to break up but he said something that truly hurt and I have no desire to even look at him at the moment. So Im done with that.

I'm still working...constantly it seems and decided that Im going to buy a townhouse. I have no desire to have a room mate and at this stage in my life I rather be alone.

I've kinda just lost all desire in life and im trying to keep my head up but im tired of fighting to keep myself up when its so easy to slip into a doldrum mode.

Thanksgiving was a regular day...didnt do anything, no celebrating at all.

I'm not looking forward to the holidays at all...just because.

I havent been feeling well, and Ive woken up delirious the past few nights, My appointment with my neurologist needs to hurry up.

I'm just not in the mood anymore and people and their bullshit have officially made me jaded towards life itself.

And I know its bad when the HP teaser trailer doesnt even lift my spirits.


I need a drink....